Monday, November 29, 2010

Heartbreak


 Sorry for my absence.

I don't normally post about anything negative or sad. 
I hope that this will be the saddest post I will have to do for a very long time... 
 I just felt you all should know what is going on..

I'm home. 
Living with my family back in Utah.

I moved back home on Wednesday. 
I drove through the night with my little pup, stinky cat and all of my supplies,
I met my mom and sister in Albuquerque and we drove to Utah after 2 hours of sleep.

My husband and I have decided to split up.
I won't explain or go into details.
He isn't here to defend himself, and I just don't have it in me to explain it anymore.
(I spent a lot of the 15 hour car ride explaining it out loud to myself)


There are tears in my eyes as I type these words.
I'm not sure what I am trying to say.. I've been dreading this post all week.


But, I am here...

And I know,
life is hard, and everyone has to go through trials.
Everyone suffers, hearts break, and tears fall.

Life doesn't always turn out the way we plan.
Heartbreak is inevitable at some point in your life.
I guess it's my turn.

It is good to be home, but a very weird feeling.
Living in the same house I grew up in,
but it is no longer mine.


I feel like a stranger, sleeping alone, waking up alone.
I sure am thankful for my family though.


I feel as if everyone who sees me is thinking terrible things.
Moving back to the same neighborhood I grew up in... seeing the people I've known for so long.

I guess I feel like a failure.
Ashamed, embarrassed, small and broken.

 

I know things happen for a reason.
I will be back to myself again.
I will love life, take silly pictures, laugh, and create again.



Thursday, November 18, 2010

The Sky

The sky fascinates me.






Whenever I take Mowgli outside I always bring a camera.. I don't want miss a beautiful picture because I had to run back inside to grab a camera. My neighbors think I'm nuts, always taking pictures.. I am just glad I get to save a piece of the ever changing sky. The colors and shapes are always changing.

Tuesday, November 16, 2010

Love & Hate

Love: Overcast weather
Hate: Being too cold

Love: Wishing on 11:11
Hate: Forgetting to post this picture on 11/11

Love: My new necklace from Blueberryshoes
Hate: Forgetting to take pictures sooner!

Love: Trees with complimentary colors.
Hate: Nothing to hate when it comes to trees.

Love: Halloween candy on clearance
Hate: I can't eat it all! (Come help me.)

Love: Taking silly pictures so I can have a good laugh later. (Always works.)
Hate: I look like a bug.

Love: Getting stuff done and being caught up
Hate: Cleaning up afterwords

Love: Listing new pendants, and taking new and improved photos.
Hate: Loosing my perfect photography spot back in Arkansas.

Love: My sleepy puppy.
Hate: Nothing to hate about this guy.. 

 Love: Finding beautiful quotes to share!
Hate: Confusing people as to where I get them.
I get most of my quotes from Imagefave.com, ffffound.com, minimotivation.com, and from using stumbleupon. I always try to include a link, but if you miss it, check out these sites!


Love: Having Earth toenails.
Hate: My feet.

Love: Making new hats and adding them to the shop!
Hate: Nothing to hate about that!


Love Love Love Love: Today is my one year anniversary on Etsy!
(I know it says it was opened in March.. I forgot all about my Etsy account until last year!)
Once year ago today I decided to stop looking for a job. 
I decided to post a green scarf and a few hats on Etsy.
I haven't looked back. 
I get to do what I love every single day.
What's not to love about that?!
Hate: I wish I would have done it sooner!