Wednesday, April 27, 2011


Success means something different to everyone. Take a moment and think about what success means to you. Now think of where you got that image of success from. 

Society leads us to believe that in order to be successful we need to have a good paying a job, a nice home, a nice car and enough money to travel each year. On top of that we have to have the perfect body and the perfect family. (Or at least have the perfect body.)
(Think of all the tv shows out there that have a working hot wife, and a fat lazy husband.)

The world teaches us to believe that we need to go to college right out of high school, and if you don't.. you are a failure. The world teaches us that your job is your life. 
The question, "What do you want to be when you grow up?" is a terrible question to ask a child. It's even more terrible when the child gets scorned for saying they want to be a mommy, an artist, a musician or any other "impractical, poor paying job".

The best thing in life is that you can literally do whatever YOU want to do. You don't have to listen to society and the media. College and work doesn't define you.  It's up to you to define yourself to the world. If you don't want a mainstream job, don't get one. Figure something else out. 

Once way or another it is going to be difficult. 

You need to learn to stand on your own two feet, and take care of yourself. It's time to sift through all the crap you've been taught about how to behave, how to look, how much to weigh, what to drive, where to work, what to wear, how and where you should live and what you should do for a living. 

Believe it or not,
You are in control.
You are in control of your own life.
You are the reason why you are happy or sad.
So don't wait for happiness. 
Go out and find it.
Right now.


It's time to learn how to truly give back to the universe. It's time to start creating and contributing to the world... but in your very own way.

Don't let others make you believe you are a failure just because you don't measure up to their definition of success.

This is your life, and your only shot to be happy.

Tuesday, April 26, 2011

4 Step Program

After Mowgli passed away I became very very depressed. Not a day has gone by that I haven't teared up or cried a little from missing my sweet baby. Before I start to cry (even more) I will change the subject slightly.

Since that depression I started working really hard to get myself in a happier place. I knew it wasn't going to happen where I was at. I have been living with my parents since November, and most of my stuff has been in boxes. Most of my supplies have not been unpacked, so I have not been able to feel comfortable enough to create new things. I felt depressed at home because I no longer heard Mowgli's paws following me around the house, or saw his smiley face when I came home at night.

So, I developed a 4 step program:

1. Get a job.
2. Get a car.
3. Move out.
4. Get a new puppy.

I am proud to say that I have accomplished the first two within the first month of this 4 step program.

I recently got a wonderful job. I will tell you more about it as time goes on.. but my new job allows me to be creative and design.. I'm loving it. I love not working at a phone job in a call center... I was terrified that I would have to get a job like that. I would have, I would have done anything to accomplish my 4 step program.

Last week I purchased a car. I had been saving up and up for a car for a very long time.. and my price range was low. I needed a decent car for under 1000. I didn't think I would ever find anything that would work.. But I went car hunting with Brad and his parents. His step dad is a car expert and a mechanic and we found a cute little car from the 80's. I drove it and loved it. It isn't the nicest car in the world, but to tell you the truth, I don't like nice things.. I am a disastrous and clumsy girl, I wouldn't feel comfortable in a nice car. So I bought myself a Mazda 626 from 1988. We were born in the same year, how fun! So far Stitch has been a really good car. (10 points to whoever can guess why I named him stitch.) Brad and Destinee, you can't guess.
The next two steps on my four step program are in progress. I've been looking for pet friendly apartments in my price range for months now. Utah is one of the worst places to find any pet friendly apartments. I won't give up though. I'm determined to finish.

Monday, April 25, 2011

Spring Time Beauty

Easter was beautiful. It was my first time being back home for Easter in 3 years. Spring time in Utah is short, but very very pretty. I love the pastel blossoms and colors that spring brings.
I spent Saturday with Brad's family. His mother gave us girls some nail polish in our Easter Baskets. We had such a good time decorating our fingernails and toenails for spring time.
Later we dyed and decorated Easter eggs. Once again it had been a while since I did that. Probably more like 6 years since I dyed any Easter eggs!
Sunday I spent with my family. We had a great big meal and a delicious cake. It was a bit lopsided and not the prettiest thing in the world, but it sure was delicious.
All of our fruit trees have been blooming. I love to walk outside and take pictures of the tiny buds and blossoms.
I truly love spring. 
New beginnings are everywhere, blossoming on trees and growing up from the ground.
 The sun comes out and shines his warm rays on Mother Earth.

It's a good reminder that storms always pass, and nothing is permanent.

Sunday, April 24, 2011

Happy Easter

Happy Easter my beautiful friends.

Yesterday was spent with friends.
Today is spent with family. 

Pictures for tomorrow.

Ha, so true..

Thursday, April 21, 2011

Sand, Waves, Lights, Fortunes

Our third and final day in California we had a picnic on the beach and wandered the streets of LA. Literally wandered... we got severely lost. Luckily we both have good sense of humors and laughed the whole time.